- As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place...
To U. I neva once said the word 4eva..Now i know better.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
He always says: "i'll love u always..."
u know, i neva once promise him forever nor always. cos i can't predict what the future holds. Certain things might happen in the future that is beyond my control. I hate empty promises n that's why i never once said: "i'll love u forever..." perhaps he don't realise it. but i guess its an issue that i haf to address soonner or later.
dere r so many relationships prob happening arnd me. quarrels..breaks..patches..its all unavoidable i guess. but the most ironic part is when 2 parties love one another & yet will not be together due to certain reasons from perhaps one or both parties. c'mon what game are u playin at. r u seriously too immature too think? life's short, u might wake up the next day & found ur loved ones gone. n then regrets set in. whose fault is that may i ask? why wait till drastic things happens till one really sits down n regret. Humans learn things the hard way i guess. We often take things for granted in our oh-so sheltered life. i don't wish to fall prey to human instints. i'm taking life very seriously..esp the things in life that is most important like my loved ones; be it family..frens n him. the rest can wait. the need to survive in this society's rat race is in the hope of earning enough money, not in the money-minded sense.. but so as to let my loved ones satisfy all their needs & live comfortably, happily. i want to give them a good life in future. n that is wat drives me to pursue higher qualifications and instill discipline n dilligence in all that i do.
n funny things do happen. a "thought" just pop-up in this small little corner of my brain. i finally understand why one promises 'forever'. true, one can't predict the future. but now, with all that he have, all that he breathe, all that he stands for..till his last dying breath..he'll love u.. *n yet this doubt appears.. but what if he leave u in the future. does that "love u forever" still exists?? i guess there are seriusly too many "what ifs". i'm goin to live my life without all the "what ifs" for now. i hate regrets more than empty promises :)
but, i certaintly hopes he do seriously mean it. n understand all the implications that forever brings. i don't want empty promises. Which is why i would rather he not saying it if he dun really know the implications behind it.
n so this is for u.
don't ask me how it could be sometimes it's hard to believe that in my lifetime i could find that someone who can make me complete u are the air that i breathe i've never felt this way ' bout any guy like i feel for u so this is what i'm gonna do i'm giving you my heart forever every beat of my heart says it's true i know we'll always be together forever u lovin' me - me lovin' u u are so special to me your love is all that i need and i'm gonna spend the rest of my life loving you faithfully this love i feel is so strong with u my heart's found a home 'cause no one in this world could ever love me like u do so you can best believe i'm giving u my heart forever every beat of my heart says it's true my love for u won't fade no never and when i'm holding u close to me i know all of my dreams have come true my love is for real
yes, i can't promise u forever in our unpredictable future. but at least i tried..with every breath that i took..
