- As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place...
Rest in Peace.
Monday, December 19, 2005
19th Dec 2005..d day tt i heard news ttt u were gone. Forever. Far far away to another place. I'd never c u again. It was so shocking. I could hardly believe it. It seems like a dream..tt i wish i cld wake up..& hear ur voice once again..telling me tt it was all just a huge joke. That u were kidding..tt i cld watch u grow old together. The heartache..it was terible..very very hurting. I walk arnd in a daze..feeling the shock in my heart..refusing to accept the harsh truth. N when it finally sink in, the tears start flowing.
To know tt u were so young..when u left this world..leaving everything behind. Ur family, ur frens..all ur dreams unfufilled. Sometimes life really isn't fair. U deserve better. So much more better. Now i finally understand the phrase "good peple die early." When i think of u, i cld'nt stop tearing. It was just so sad. So so very sad...n i thought maybe i wld come to the point when i simply haf no more tears in me. but i was so wrong. When i think back on the memories we once share..the fun n the laughter with mun n the rest..hw u pop by at nydc waving at me across at Big o..the spike D picts u sent to me..the days at the bball court.. do u still remember..
Remember d many times we chat on msn. U listen to my worries. U listen to my fears. U were there. Just listening. N tt is all i ever need. I dun need no good advice, i dun need no good consolations on ur part. At tt time, i just need someone to share..n u were there..listening. That is all i need. U told me once, "dun think too much..life is so unpredictable..u never noe what might happen the next day. Yet ironically, u left. Just left...
I hope u're in a better place right now. U had ur share of worries in this world..but u always seems so optimistic..always wanting to portray a happy n carefree front. I sincerely wish tt u r happy..where u r right nw. U will oways be deeply missed.
Also, i want to let u noe tt u're such a nice guy. U've been a good fren, a good son (hw u told me u helped out with the financial burden of ur family..)..But most importantly..u've been my source of inspiration. I guess u never know hw much u're valued in my heart. If only i had let u noe how happy i had oways been chatting with u. I guess it is too late. Maybe it's the only regret i wld harbour. I wld'nt say we had been the best of frens. But u r like a very good fren..someone whom i feel really comfortable with sharing my problems.
Once again, thanks for listening. Thanks for just being there. Thanks for being u. I'd miss u alot. There wld no longer be any chalets organise by u next year..remember hw u always organise chalets n gatherings every year?? The thought hurts. A helluva lot. I miss u . Terribly.
