- As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place...
the voice within.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
seeing u today simply made me happy. more than happy actually..ecstatic! :D even though its just a few hours accompanying u to study. so dun say tt i'm bored watsoever. i'm not! dun u get it tt just being near u is all tt i want? u're my source of happiness.
maybe cos we seldom see each other for KINDA LONG! maybe cos we spent so little quality time with each other. tt's why every moment spent with u is so precious!
but i hate it. i hate to see u so infrequently. i hate to always hug u goodbye n know tt the next time i c u will be a long longg time away. i hate it tt u can treat it so nonchalantly. i hate it when ther are no plans @ all.
i know u haf many commitments..but sometimes i feel tt u take on more than u can handle. i noe u dislike being idle. but..i hate it when u fall sick. i hate it when u're on busy-bee mode n never seems to really relax and enjoy life. somehow u dun seem as happy n carefree as in the past. i miss the old u.
i know its work tt keeps u so occupied. but when sch starts, u'll be even more stress. i dun wish to see u so tense-up and stressful.
even when i'm busy, i wld always make time for u. cos u're way up there on top of my priority list. i noe tt's not the same for u. i know u do love me..but its just tt other stuffs are much more prioritised. other stuffs are much more important. u're the opposite of me in terms of priorities. i hate to be taken for granted. like i'm always there n so u dun need to see each other so often.
i hate the quarrels, the unhappiness, the disagreements. i want u to be happy when u're already so busy with other stuffs! i hate tears-soak pillows everytime there's unhappiness.
however..despite all this.. i want to let u know tt I WOULD NEVER GIVE UP ON U. even if sometimes u treat me so unimportantly. even if u seems so far away at times. even if u often made me unhappy. even if we dun see each other for months, years even.. i would never give up on our love.
who says relationships are perfect. its takes lotsa effort to keep a relationship going and carve it to be an ideal one for both parties. i'm going to give all i can to build our relationship. i hope u share the same sentiment.
i finaaly say it all out. its not i dun wish to tell u. but sometimes i dun even understand myself, and u even. n i can hardly tell u for fear of making u sad. i hate how contradicting i m sometimes. but i'm only human.
we haf been together for one n a half years. things haf improved so much as compared to the past. but i believe our relationship haf more room for growth.
