- As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place...
scream it out.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
sigh. i've got so much things running thru my mind. today's chalet was............... WASN'T FUN, DEFINITELY! why am i expected to socialise with all ur friends? why am i expected so feel so in place when i join ur group of friends? dun u even consider that i might feel awkward and wordless? why am i expected to have fun mingling with all ur friends? have u ever thought that they are ultimately, your friends, and not mine? so why am i expected to go around making small talks? it feels like such a burden. so i rather be on my own, no obligations to put on an act.
u can go around socialising with all your friends, not worry bout neglecting me. but i wish u could be more sensitive, show some concern occasionally. but i seen none of that. so it was rather disappointing and heartbreaking.
and then comes along a little girl. she's just a lil kid, but i'd more fun with her than anyone else. i love kids, or maybe u dunno me well enough to know that?? *smirk* so after all that fun with her, i was told that it was kinda eh wrong???? that i should interact with the rest of your friends instead. that it seems like i was lonely and so choose her to play arnd with?? that's like totally crap to me, and it pissed me off. still, i dun wish to quarrel with u and spoilt ur mood.
the feelings i had about u today was kinda weird. hope it wun happen the second time.
cos i'm starting to doubt..... to doubt something real bad........
