- As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place...
anticipation.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
bout a day more to departure to KL! be taking the night train on sunday...hohohoho...can't wait :) been to kl like 2 or 3 times i think. not much things to see..the same old boring places. but, its much more better than in boring boring boring SINGAPORE. and i get to see him for three whole days straight, 24/7 arnd the clock :D not much shopping to do too...as my wardrobe is damn full. gotta stop buying clothes. and i dun think i need anything else right now. so.....i'll be shopping for my mum! she DEMANDSSSSS so many things. heh. hmmm...packing for the trip is a headache..like three days no big deal. but once i open my big big wardrobe, i can't decide which clothes to bring can! heh heh heh.
i should take the chance to settle certain issues with him on the trip. but, i'm afraid that i would ultimately prefer to be indifferent, to let things remains the way they are. sometimes i yearn for so much changes..yet i dunn know how and where to start. & maybe a lil 'chixken'..afraid of what changes might bring about. one moment i can be drastically upset over the way certain stuffs are, but another moment, i can accept the way things are in an amicable manner..and give lotsa excuses to cover up certain thoughts & actions. i am fighting an internal war. i need to break loose, fight for the things i want ..and not settle for second best. but its hard its hard, its HARD! no matter how hard, i must do it..for fear that sorrow and tears would always be arnd the corner.
enough bout those emo stuffs, if i recalled correctly, Ms Lim ALWAYS says that my blog sounds sad.. :) maybe its because when u're sad and unhappy, u'll aways vent ur frustrations at an outlet. i choose my blog as my outlet :( of course the happy moments are blogged down too...but the sad always seems to triump over the happy ones. maybe the sad affects me more than the happy ones. the sad are always bout him too. without him in my life, perhaps there might not be anymore sad moments, but then again the happy ones are gone too. so maybe i should live with it...for through the sad moments...i come to better appreciate the happy ones!
