- As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place...
SUNSHINE.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
To You, Dear, yes kind of joke that mi having a blog, that wat i think also but i guess that the best way to express myself, LAZY to update! just hope i can update regularly.remember that msg you send mi? dont wish to disturb my life, scare of irritate mi when i'm busy...Your life and my life, why can't it be simple to be OUR life?i just hope you can irritate mi more, yes i truly hope so. Every time you phone mi, i feel so happy hearing your voice, kinda bright up my day. of cos there time that i will be busy and tell you i can't tok but that familiar voice i hear is enough! getting into my life guess it pretty hard... Same as mi getting into your...i would say my life suck it bored! 6 day a week at the POOL and endless training for my upcoming event, sometime i just hope you can join mi for training, so we can have lot of time together better then i always telling you that i tired and sleepin soon when you are so awake after work... haiZi know that you are understandin, undertandin also got it limitation, guess i do know that now. i'm so afraid to promise you with anything especially when my sch is starting. guess it will be more pack and busy. pls bear with mi thank...Guess it too long liao... Just want you to know that i love U! Yes sincerely love U!
i just had to copy the above that he wrote in his blog and paste it here..for fear that i might lose these words that i hold so dear to my heart. way back in the past, he told me that he should start a blog, so that i can read his inner thoughts..know what he's thinking..understand him better. at that point of time, i thought that it would never happen..cos a busyyyyy guy like him..how could he possibly find time to blog...and he might be sooo lazy to want to update often. heh. but hmmmm...he recently started a blog in friendster! AND I WAS LIKE SO AMAZED AND SHOCKED! cos knowing him, who seldom express his feelings..it's kinda hard blogging his feelings i suppose. or maybe i fail to understand him...often resulting in me misunderstanding him, even though he might feel that he's already being very direct. but i always want to know what he's really thinking deep down inside. i can't seem to thoroughly understand him . i felt taken for granted sometimes. thinking back, i feel like such a failure..as a girlfriend..i realise that i've always expect him to call or sms..always wanting him to initiates meet-ups..and when he dun do such things, i feel like he dun give a damn..and i get quite upset bout it. simple meassges and calls from him do bright up my day...and i realise that i've deny him such simple pleasures throughout almost two years of our relationship. since he take the first step to outwardly express himself, i realise that i should do so too...cos ultimately, it takes 2 hands to clap in a relationship. i promise to not hide unhappiness, to let him in to tt emotional side of me, most importantly to IRRITATE HIM =D previously i was so afraid that i might intrude into his busy busy life, or simply irritate him..but now i realise that i've been so silly, cos that's what he actually wants..maybe to know that i do care for and miss him. so darling boy if u complain tt i'm irritating, i'm so gonna retreat back into my shell! HEH HEH HEH. anyway thanks for not giving up on our relationship despite some unhappiness, arguements and our indifference. i'll never give up on us!
and the part on understanding has its limitations...perhaps its true. but i wun so easily give up on u..cos love brings with it understanding!
we are still trying to make this relationship work better and better and better! and i''m so glad u took the first step. hopefully u wld update occasionally so that i can feel u :))))
many more years together! lovelove.
i finally get my answer..after almost 2 long years ^_^
OKAY THIS IS WHERE I STOPPED COS FREAKING BLOGGER SO SCREWED UP. LOST MOST OF MY TEXT. AND I DUN WANNA TYPE IT ALL OUT AGAIN :(
